Here I go again...

Why do I let little things get to me? I have gone and made some people probably want to hate me forever now. I have just had one rotten week and then I go and make an inquiry, that goes south? I feel so awful, I did not sleep but an hour my stomach feels like a pit of hurt and all I want to do is be mad at myself. The worst of it all is this all has to happen this weekend(07/04)! Why could I have just ignored everything. I tried to talk this morning cause I would not have been able to sit through church with this gut wrenching ache in my stomach(not because of fasting either). I emailed them and wrote out a big apology, but I know it still does not make it better. I told them I would tell them in person if they could stand to sit there with me. Does this help count toward me trying to make it better? If my life were over I'd have to devote my end of days to service toward them. I have prayed about it and I feel nothing I say or do will change anything. I know I was told to not be a pessimist(spelled right?), but it looks like someone keeps dragging it out of me and now I get to pay the price. If misery loves company I guess I will keep him company until I can out drown the guilt I have, and what I did, even with an apology hanging out there.

You can/'t count on ME

It's complicated and that's all I can say. If I vent I may cause ripples where calm water stands.

"It is the aggregate of the acts which I perform through life that makes up the conduct that will be exhibited in the day of judgment, and when the books are opened, there will be the life which I have lived for me to look upon, and there also will be the acts of your lives for you to look upon. Do you not know that the building up of the kingdom of God...is to be done by little acts? You breathe one breath at a time; each moment is set apart to its act, and each act to its moment. It is the moments and the little acts that make the sum of the life of man. Let every second, minute, hour, and day we live be spent in doing that which we know to be right."


-President Brigham Young(Journal of Discourses, 3:342-43)

UGH :-(

I will spare any weakness to gross stuff with a post with no pictures, although, I would think its funny?So my night was normal, we hung out. Then I put the torture on and YANK! we pulled out a tooth that has been bugging' for about a week. We had tears of pain and hatred toward me, blood was spurting from everywhere it seemed, but got through with a special brownie with ice cream after dinner. I stayed up beyond my comfort of no sleeping watching my DVR'd shows? I will never understand why I put myself through the agony of not sleeping? The baby acts like she is weeks old, instead of almost a year old...

So when I do decide to sleep, it feels like I've been asleep for hours, and then.... I hear the dreaded sound of bodily fluids coming from down the hall with the husband racing to the scene. I fly out of bed to see if I can salvage any part of my sanity of not being up all morning long, wrong! I have one child throwing up all over the bed and then to find she has thrown up all over her sister, ha ha ha: clothes, hair, pj's. Hence the title, UGh! I am now up and I was only asleep for a little over an hour. Rinsing sheets, pj's, hair; then to sit up and make sure at least one load of yuck gets washed. Now the girls are cleaned up they smell great, but I cannot say much about how the rest of my house smells. Any ideas I cannot open windows (don't need them colder and its been raining) I need the smell out before I am cleaning up after my husband, he has a weak tolerance of vomit. I guess I'm off to feed a non-sleeping baby and finish my laundry. Maybe I should go get and energy drink and stay up, I will be tired all day anyways?

*** SNOW ***

I could'nt resist I have changed my blog background to reflect the weather for now. :) I can not say how much I have anticipated todays stormy weather. I love shoveling, playing, driving, all of it. This is all because no one can go from one season/holiday to the next in an orderly fashion j/k(stores displaying Christmas stuff before Halloween is even over) Nonetheless, my kids and I drink hot cocoa all year long, so to be lucky and have a warm house and little things to enjoy is a great blessing. I look forward to this upcoming holiday season with a new sense of Givng in my heart to help others, less fortunate.

Winner! Winner!

Holy cow! I just won a contest for a cute beanie hat. This is going to be a tough decision, 'who gets to receive the beanie?' I have a mini me, a beast, a wiggler, and an oh so cute baby, and only one hat. I am just totally excited. I enter a few of these contest occasionally and seems like I'm with the few who are so close but no cigar.(odds were 1:1066 lucky #59)

Perfect start to Perfect weekend

I am terrible. I've been trying to get back to the temple since I first went way back in May :( How sad, I know but I did go with my mom on Thursday. I do have to say I have not been in the Bountiful temple since its open house years ago. I absolutely love that temple (they are all great don't get me wrong) seems like I would be less confused in that one. But all in all my husband did not go so he got to stay home and watch kids (maybe next time he will want to go with me?) The poor baby she just can't live without me for a few hours she cried for an hour prior to me getting home, so sad, but the three less worrisome were in bed and my trouble maker was still up just eating dinner at 11 pm. Leave it to my husband to not feed anyone. I am committing to going at least once a month with my mom, and then making every effort to have my husband attend once with me as well.

Great Weekend

I had a great start to finish my weekend. Our dear sweet "Annie" is what we call her gets free tickets to just about anything held in the Energy Solutions Arena. She 'will' called tickets for us to the circus. And I'm slow or just out dated? but sorry they say no cameras, and so I just don't take one, anyways too afraid of it getting dropped or taken. But hey I still managed to use my phone to snap a not so great ppicture of my girls being funny. They had a blast.









Then on Saturday I was invited to an annual Bergstrom tradition of watching the broadcast of the General Relief Society Session with my other half of the family. I was glad to be invited as I have never been to a session. Afterwards we had a good time eating dinner, and talking about family at the Olive Garden.